what would i steal ?

met anybody interesting today ?? ..... had an interesting conversation with anyone interesting ??

a friend threw a question on msn once ... that if i were to steal one thing from her, what would it be?

rather an interesting question i would put in my ponder box ....

what would i take from you ? ... & if it was stolen from you, would it be to make your life more miserable, make you happier or make ME happier ... ?!

now what would that ONE thing be ?? just what would i steal?? would it be one of your worldly possessions ?? one of your special gifts ?? ... your good looks ??? or that humongous zit on your face ... yah you wish!! .... or maybe your mental state ?? would it be your unstable emotion? your expectations ??? ..... your confidence ... or rather your insecurities ?? .... mmmm

just ONE thing... can it be your determination in life??? .... probably one of your crazy manners or one of your compulsive habits ?? your freaking work ethics then ??? ... your fickleness ?? .... your gratefulness??? ... or your UNgratefulness??? ..... steal one of your friends?? steal your knowledge maybe ?? your arrogance ?? ... mmm ... your virtues ??? your wit or your courage maybe ???

and if i were to successfully steal that one thing ... would i want to use it for myself or do i decide to chuck it into thy kingdom come?? DAMN... this is too much to ponder about ....




having worked in a place where i get to meet at least 50 different people every other day and then moving to a small little office of 7 people ... and now a place where i have more than a thousand colleagues, it didnt take me long to get use to different work environments....

i get to meet colourful people and sometimes boring ones too ... i exchange the usual banters & the small talks ... i hear the few personal secrets and i trade the occasional gossip .... and for the many familiar faces i meet everyday, i think for today i will decide to steal your negativity... yep, you read it right, ... your negativity, .. your thoughts and whines and such that make you frown ... those terrible vibes that you pass on as if you have the right to ....

i'll steal it and i'll try not to use it for myself ... i'll attempt to dispose of it as quickly as i possibly can ... but if some were to spill out of me ... i'm terribly sorry ... i'll try my very best to contain it ...

you may willingly but unknowingly give it to me at times. i'll take it from you but i'm sure you wont give it all away ... and still leave some to the next person you meet or talk to ...

but it's gonna be totally different if i were to steal it from you. i'll do it completely without your knowledge.... the whole chunk of it,.. you won't even realize that it's gone ..... that's right ...

so the next time you run into me, or even hear me on the phone, and if you consciously wish to bitch or whine about something or someone, don't be astonished if you suddenly have nothing but happy thoughts to share with me ...

i cling on

Throw in some anguish,... total despair,... a lot of confusion,... sheer disappointment,... disgraceful humiliation,... utter stupidity,... unnecessary worry,... quiet desperation,... total disbelief,... pitiful disgust, ... feel them all at one time, jumble them up all over & feel them randomly,... all in a very short space of time. Toss them between your head & your heart .... .... .... .... .. ....

not everyone gets to taste how that feels like... not everyone's cup of emotions to be blended into the mind at any one time in the middle of the lonely night. Run through each feeling again.... ... .. Let each feeling graze the soul & repeat in total random order once more... .... .... not a nice feeling....

i get to taste it.. ... not once... .. disbelief ... at myself for allowing repetition of this tormenting kind.

that's what the humankind is known for... to what extend? ... ? til the sane mind bursts, giving way to incurable insanity?.. ?

at the brink i hang,... in fact, what am i hanging on to?? i'm holding on to what? i cannot tell nor do i wish to know.

Will whatever that i'm clinging on to withold my grasp? I run through all those feelings again . .. .... .... i cling on.........................

Growing old

i just cant help but laugh at a good one.... this one truly deserves to be in my blog :



The Miracle of Toilet Paper

"Fresh from my shower, I stand in front of the mirror complaining to my
husband that my breasts are too small. Instead of characteristically
telling me it's not so, he uncharacteristically comes up with a
suggestion. "If you want your breasts to grow, then every day take a
piece of toilet paper and rub it between them for a few seconds."

Willing to try anything, I fetch a piece of toilet paper and stand in
front of the mirror, rubbing it between my breasts. "How long will this
take?" I asked. "They will grow larger over a period of years,"
my husband replies. I stopped. " Do you really think rubbing a piece of
toilet paper between my breasts every day will make my breasts larger
over the years?" Without missing a beat he says "Worked for your butt!,
didn't it?"

He's still alive, and with a great deal of therapy he may even walk
again.

Stupid, stupid man

my... my... what the...

i am one who cannot control my laughter and sometimes my movements when i'm in a laughing fit........... the other day, i was watching this stand-up comedy show in a sitting theatre where the main ingredients were stitching laughters, gags & guffaws. unfortunately, in the midst of my laughter, i 'might' have accidentally bumped the chair of the person in front of me. the lady sitting on it turned & gave me a quick stare & whispered something to her friend. she shifted her posture. i buat dono... my... my... i continued to enjoy the show while making an extra conscious effort to avoid any sudden-jerk of any of my body parts towards the front. the show went on... gavin made a fool of himself, afdlin came late, nell didnt get funnier, ida mistakenly called afdlin's name instead of harith's..... and harith was as hilarious as ever.
and what must have been a nice coincidence, i saw the lady in front of me accidently kick the chair in front of her in the midst of her laughter too, i then had the best pleasure of seeing her receive a stare from the person in front of her. I laughed harder at the next joke and gleamed in my heart for the rest of the show,... just because the lady in front of me sat throughout the nite... crouching on her chair.. both her legs as close as possible to her body............ :P and the best bits of the show....... all of them...

memories....

that scent brings me back to the moment you first told me your name .......... that ringtone brings me back to the day you returned my call .......... that soundtrack brings me back to the time you said that you enjoyed our first movie .......... that voice on the radio brings me back to the time we took a 3-hour drive to the beach .......... that cool breeze brings me back to the moments where we made weird footprints on the sand .......... that movie brings me back to the time i reached out to hold your tender hands .......... that couch brings me back to the day we went thru a 3-movie marathon .......... that mushroom soup brings me back to the weekend that we had 2 sinful buffet binges .......... that wrapper brings me back to the moment you "chided" me for buying you 99 stalks of roses for valentine's .......... that thump brings me back to the day you dropped a 11-pound bowling ball & broke your nail .......... that giggle brings me back to the day your little brother teased me as i mistook your dad for your uncle .......... that body oil brings me back to the moment i gave you a massage & you giggled like a little schoolgirl .......... that dent brings me back to the time i lost my cool .......... that sigh brings me back to the moment i saw your first teardrop .......... that long dial tone brings me back to the time you didnt answer all my calls .......... that shampoo scent brings me back to the moment i held on to you not wanting to let go .......... that honk brings me back to the time we took our first tut-tut ride .......... that emptiness brings me back to the time you gave me the longest cold shoulder .......... that trash can brings me back to the day you tore up all our vacation pictures .......... that mended vase brings me back to the time you said you wanted space .......... that corner food stall brings me back to the time i took long & lonely dinners .......... that broken tail light brings me back to the moment you said that there could be another guy .......... the howling wind brings me back to the times i wonder where you may be .......... that pillowcase brings me back to the many times i wished that you were here & we were still happy .......... that empty rack brings me back to the time i pondered over all the 'what ifs' .......... that couple holding hands brings me back to the moment i wished upon the brightest star that you will find happiness wherever you lay your dreams on ..........

i'm buying a new one

the threads are coming out? forget it. i'll get new ones .......... THE SCREWS ARE LOOSE, DONT MATTER, I'LL GET NEW ONES .......... the binding's old, come on, we'll go get new ones .......... IT'S TURNING YELLOW, DARN, I'LL GET NEW ONES .......... this is no longer trendy, ok, i'll buy new ones .......... YOURS HAS BLUETOOTH & 64MB BUILT-IN MEMORY, I'M GETTING A BETTER ONE .......... the repairs will cost me what?! i'm getting new ones .......... TOO SLOW TO GET THE JOB DONE? I'M ADDING A NEW ONE .......... not hot enough to be seen in it? damn, i'm gonna get a new one .......... MAKING SQUEEKY NOISES? JUST GO GET NEW ONES .......... prices will depreciate next year, uhm, don't worry, i'll order a new one .......... CAN'T GIVE ME WHAT I NEED? HELL, I'LL SEARCH FOR A NEW ONE! .......... she said what behind my back?! F**K!! i'm looking for a new one .......... COMPLAIN TO HER MOTHER?! F**K!! LET HER KNOW I'M FINDING A NEW ONE .......... bring the kids where?! F**K!! i'll make new ones! .......... DIDNT COME HOME LAST NIGHT?! I'LL FIND ANOTHER ONE ..........

no wonder trading & match-making is where the money is... take all these with a pinch of salt & if it's sour or even bitter, try to find a little more value in things,... i found mine

what we became...

fuck!! i hate this light! they're giving me a headache, they're just too yellow! .......... would you just change the station, i hate this song!! it's so freaking mushy! .......... oh god! this weather sucks! why is it so humid?? .......... this is the last time i'm wearing this sweater, it's just too hot & pricky for me to like it! .......... what's wrong with your couch? and your taste?? blue linings??!! and i'll get a freakin' backache just sitting on it! .......... puhleeezz, could you just switch the channel, this acting's giving me goosebumps .......... are we there yet? why is it taking so long? and i dont see the point in driving 30km just to see your aunt, it's not like she fell down a flight of stairs or she's dying!! .......... that cousin of yours?! dont you find her too naggy for her age?? .......... oh, if you'r having lunch with that prick Eddie, then please count me out. dont you find him too whiney?! i'd rather eat alone today! .......... god, i hate my dad sometimes! why cant he be like other cool dads??! .......... shites, i cant stand that brother of mine really, he's such a predictable baby!! .......... god, i hate my life!!! it's just too boring!! know what?! i'll probably drive to the beach & just chilllll..................................................... god, is this sand or what??!! it's so, so ....... grainy!!

persons or events used or referred are purely coincidental. do not be overly-sensitive if you happen to have blue linings on your couch or if i avoid having lunch with you.

what's to become of us?

.... what's to become of us? what's there for us?....
tell me that we do not at times treat or please our colleagues at our best possible way... but can drag our feet home to our loved ones with a long face... why do we crack our heads to come out with the best ideas to surprise a birthday friend and yet even forget to call home at least to say that we'll be late?.... are they not the ones we promised to take care of in times of good or bad?... are they not the ones who deserve so much better from us?....
why do we even smile at a gorgeous stranger yet scowl at someone at home at the slightest irritation?...why do we think of giving alms at church or doing good for our community when all we can do at home is reach for the remote as soon as we hit the couch or bury our faces with the latest gossip in the papers?... why do envy happy families at the park,... loving couples at the movies,... another with the cutest 2 year-old child & yet we dont even bother to look at our loved ones when we talk?... maybe because they're always there?... or maybe they can wait for another time... another day... another chance... another life....
what's there for us? what's to become of us?....

food for thoughts

• Forgiveness is giving up my right to hate you for hurting me • Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something • True friends stab you in the front • Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired • They call our language the mother tongue because the father seldom gets to speak • Those who can't laugh at themselves leave the job to others • Saving is the best thing - especially when your parents have done it for you • Bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote • They said we should all pay our tax with a smile. I tried - but they wanted cash • You can't buy love... but you pay heavily for it • Real friends are the ones who survive transitions between address books • Regular naps prevent old age... especially if you take them while driving •